If you need any help related with Eating Disorders, let me know. I'm a girl who struggled anorexia & bulimia, ad who attempted suicide twice. Let me know if I can help you.
Ask me anything
May 12, 2013
Anonymous asked: How do you know if you're relapsing? I think I might be starting to, but I'm not sure...
Well, in my case, I started to notice that there were some days in which I used to eat a lot, and then I starve for the next days “trying to compensate my calorie intake”.
Then, I also noticed that I’m scared to eat. I’m not scared to calories at all, but I’m scared to introduce something to my body.
In summary, I started to notice that there was “something wrong” with my habits and how I see food.
I want to update my “status” so you know a little bit more about the person you’re talking to (and add some information you already “knew”)
My ED started in October 2009, and it ended like a year later.
My first therapy was with a psychologist from Feb 2010 to June 2010.
My diagnosis was just depression.
I started to cut myself April 2010, and a couple of weeks later I tried to kill myself twice. I stopped cutting that year on September and since then I’ve done it like 3-4 times. Since that April, I never tried to kill myself again.
My second therapy was with a psychologist from Jan 2012 - June 2012.
My diagnosis was depression, again.
My third therapy begun like 2 months ago with a psychiatrist.
My diagnosis was double-depression, even when I told her my problem was more “anxiety”
I’m currently taking Prozac, 20mg.
I’m currently working in my dermatillomania, a problem that started about 8 years ago.
My ED wants to come back, and I’m working very hard to be strong. <3
Anonymous asked: I think i may be developing an eating disorder, apparently i have a normal body (i am 5 foot 5 and weigh around 55kg) but i genuinely feel fat all the time. I move things in the fridge sometimes so the things containing the most calories are at the back so i won't see it and be tempted to eat it as i usually punish myself for eating (once purged, usually cut). I don't know where to go for advice as i don't feel comfortable talking to my parents about this. Is there any other help online?
Tumblr has a Counseling & Prevention Resources page, so can check it here. If you feel that you might be developing an eating disorder, please look for help. I know its hard, but it’s so worth it. I had an eating disorder back in 2010 and I recovered. Now I feel like my eating disorder is waking up again, and I’m so scared because I don’t want to live in hell again.
Please, please, please. Look for help. :) You don’t need to talk to your parents about this, but you can ask them to see a therapist. They can’t say a word to your parents, unless you’re in extreme danger.
x-shes-not-eating-again-x asked: You know, the new DSM comes out in May. Two major changes include the removal of the criteria requiring loss of menstral cycle in females for anorexia, less binge/purge episodes per week required for bulimia, and the addition of binge eating disorder. Also the weight requirements for anorexia have changed and become more relaxed. I saw you wrote the DSM 4 criteria on your blog. Thought you should know. I have the DSM 5 stuff on my blog.
Thank you so much for the information, otherwise I will never know as I’m not involved in the psychiatric area anymore.
I think I’m going to update it as soon as it comes out :)
Anonymous asked: I can't stop thinking about how many calories people are eating. It's just turned into a normal thought for me, like when my friends are eating pizzas at partys or drinking a hell of a lot of alcohol and I just can't. I can't put all those calories into my body and I'm scared. I can barely eat an apple without panicking about how I'll get. I need to stop this but I honestly don't know how.
I know exactly how you feel because I used to have that thought when I was ill. Instead of counting calories, why don’t you count the vitamins, the minerals, etc, etc.. something has? There are a lot of properties that healthy foods have that they can improve your body. People associate calories with fat, and it’s not like that. I’m not an expert, and correct me if I’m wrong, but calories give you the energy you need in order to do something during the day. Believe it or not, there is an amount of calories that your body is burning while you do “nothing”. You have no idea all the things that happen inside your body during the day. I wish I could name a few, but I’m not a doctor.
Anonymous asked: is it okay to have an eating disorder for attention? or try to take on the symptoms or an eating disorder? why do people do it? is it because theres some other problem?
I personally think it’s not okay to have an ED in the first place, no matter the excuse. There are some people who adopt the symptoms of an ED in order to have attention, but that doesn’t mean it’s okay. I have no idea why people do that, I believe that every person is different, however, I believe must of them have other problem.
Like I said, it’s just what I think and believe. You might need to ask this professional (psychiatrist/psychologist) in order to get a complete answer.
Anonymous asked: I always feel like I'm too fat to be anorexic. People around me always say "you have to eat more, you look anorexic." Instead of eating more, I eat less, because I feel like I have to live up to the criteria 'being anorexic skinny".
Despite “fat” or “skinny”, I think it’s important to live up to the criteria “being healthy”. People are different. Skin tones, color eyes, color hair, you name it, but also our bodies. Some people are naturally skinny, other are fat. Being healthy isn’t only “eating healthy”, but accepting your body exactly how it’s, because trust me, if you think about it, you’re the one who is going to be with you the rest of your life. I know it sounds obvious, but in order to have a great journey in life, you need to love and accept your travel partner, which is.. YOU!
In order to live an amazing life, you have to be healthy. You have no idea how much our eating habits affect our daily life. If we don’t eat properly, we start to feel tired, and so we do bad at school, for example. Your body needs food in order to be healthy and to function in a proper way. People think that food = fat. Try to think this way food = energy, energy to do amazing things in life.
Instead of trying to “be anorexic skinny”, why not try to “be healthy”. It’s lovely, and your body is going to thank you in so many ways! :D
Anonymous asked: I had both anerexia and bulimia last year, and I am still in the process of recovering. My friend, and tumblr have helped me through it all. My parents don't know, and I don't want to tell them. Do you know of any online chat groups or anything for recovery? I feel like I'm going to relapse and I really don't want to!! :'(
Unfortunately, I personally don’t know any groups for recovery. I have a couple of online friends and we try to help each other and avoid relapse. I have to admit that I met them in a “Pro Ana” group, but we have been strong, and now we support each other with our recovery, because we care about each other and we want us to be okay.
If anything helps, you can talk to me whenever you want. You can message me, or try to send me a message on kik (my username is rapsodya) or let me know which communication system you prefer!
strong-hope-caution asked: I just wanted to say that you are a great person and you do an excellent job :D I would love to help people like you do! Goodbye! p.s : excuse my english :s
Thank you so much!
When I recovered, I was thinking if I could get anything positive from my experience, and I knew that “my little mission” was to help other people who have been struggling with ED/self-injury/depression/suicide. I’m trying to recover from acne excoriee, so I hope I can help people with this problem in a future, too.
You can do this as well! I always wanted to create like a group, but unfortunately, I don’t have time for meetings and that stuff, so I try to help other people via Tumblr. :)
ps. I think your message was perfect! English isn’t my first language, too.
