January 11, 2013
According to the DSM-IV, this is the criteria for Eating Disorders

First of all, I want to made it clear that I’m not a professional. I’m an 18 years old girl who had an ED in 2010, and because of that, I had depression, I start to cut, and I tried to kill myself. I’m studying Architecture, nothing to do with Medicine/Psychology/Psychiatry. All I know is based on my experience. I say this because most of the questions I get are asking me if they have an ED.

I can’t give a diagnosis. 

I’m writing this to refer to it in the future.

DSM-IV Diagnostic Criteria for Anorexia Nervosa

  • A. Refusal to maintain body weight at or above a minimally normal weight for age and height (e.g., weight loss leading to maintenance of body weight less than 85% of that expected; or failure to make expected weight gain during period of growth, leading to body weight less than 85% of that expected). 
  • B. Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though underweight. 
  • C. Disturbance in the way in which one’s body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body shape on self-evaluation, or denial of the seriousness of the current low body weight. 
  • D. In postmenarcheal females, amenorrhea, i.e., the absence of at least three consecutive menstrual cycles. 

Type

  • Restricting type: During the current episode of anorexia nervosa, the person has not regularly engaged in binge-eating or purging behavior (self-induced vomiting or misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas). 
  • Binge-eating–purging type: During the current episode of anorexia nervosa, the person has regularly engaged in binge-eating or purging behavior (self-induced vomiting or the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas).

DSM-IV Diagnostic Criteria for Bulimia

  • Recurrent episodes of binge eating characterized by both:
  •       Eating, in a discrete period of time (e.g., within any 2-hour period), an amount of food that is definitely larger than most people would eat during a similar period of time and under similar circumstances 
  •        A sense of lack of control over eating during the episode, defined by a feeling that one cannot stop eating or control what or how much one is eating 
  • Recurrent inappropriate compensatory behavior to prevent weight gain 
  • 1. Self-induced vomiting 
  • 2. Misuse of laxatives, diuretics, enemas, or other medications 
  • 3. Fasting 
  • 4. Excessive exercise 
  • The binge eating and inappropriate compensatory behavior both occur, on average, at least twice a week for 3 months. 
  • Self evaluation is unduly influenced by body shape and weight. 
  • The disturbance does not occur exclusively during episodes of anorexia nervosa.

Type

  • Purging type: During the current episode of bulimia nervosa, the person has regularly engaged in self-induced vomiting or the misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or enemas. 
  • Nonpurging type: During the current episode of bulimia nervosa, the person has used inappropriate compensatory behavior but has not regularly engaged in self-induced vomiting or misused laxatives, diuretics, or enemas.

DSM-IV Diagnostic Criteria for Eating Disorders Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS)

Eating disorder not otherwise specified includes disorders of eating that do not meet the criteria for any specific eating disorder.

  • For female patients, all of the criteria for anorexia nervosa are met except that the patient has regular menses. 
  • All of the criteria for anorexia nervosa are met except that, despite significant weight loss, the patient’s current weight is in the normal range. 
  • All of the criteria for bulimia nervosa are met except that the binge eating and inappropriate compensatory mechanisms occur less than twice a week or for less than 3 months. 
  • The patient has normal body weight and regularly uses inappropriate compensatory behavior after eating small amounts of food (e.g., self-induced vomiting after consuming two cookies). 
  • Repeatedly chewing and spitting out, but not swallowing, large amounts of food.

You can read more about them here

(Source: edhotline)

January 11, 2013

Anonymous asked: how was your ed like a game? can you please really explain what went on in your mind during those early stages??

My thoughts were “Let’s see how many raisins I can eat this morning (instead of breakfast” “Let’s see how many days in a row I can go without having breakfast” “Let’s see how I can fool my mom” and things like that. It was all about “challenging” myself and trying to set a “personal” record. 

I’m not sure if I explained myself. It was long long time ago and my mind has changed a lot since then.

December 31, 2012
Happy New Year! :)

I have some -a lot- of messages in my inbox. I’m leaving for a party, but I promise that next year -lol, jk. when I come back- I’ll reply them all :)

If you need to talk, my inbox will be always open :) 

December 31, 2012

Anonymous asked: how did your eating disorder start?

Well, that’s a long story. I wish I could skip some events, but everything is related.

Since I remember, I had an interested in eating disorders, or in a anorexia, to be more specific. I liked to read articles, go to presentations my school offers, etc. I wanted to be thin, I wanted to lose weight, even when my genetics dictate that I have to be thin. That was when I was in Junior High.

In September 2009, someone commented on my facebook picture “pro ana”. I have to admit that I google everything. And of course I did my search, and I couldn’t believe what I found. At first, I was horrified. Why would people would promote eating disorders? I was conscious that eating disorders are bad, and I knew that if I stop eating it would be under my risk, but who would promote a disease that can lead you to death?  Months later, I was part of them. It all started as a game, eating less, saying lies, purge once in a while… Months later, this disease took my life. I was diagnosed with depression, I started to cut my arms, and I tried to kill myself a couple of times in one week.

My parents took me to therapy, and I knew that if I continue cutting myself, I’ll start to get more attention, from everybody. That’s when I started to purge, more frequently. Once a day for a while.. then twice a day… until I was purging everything I was eating. 

I knew that I needed help when I wasn’t able to open my mouth because it hurt. My mouth and my throat was so damaged and I knew I didn’t deserve that. 

December 7, 2012

Anonymous asked: I want to go into treatment but I'm scared to tell my family. What should I do?

I know that it’s hard for you to tell what is going on. Believe me, family support takes a huge role during recovery, as well as friends support. You basically have two options: to tell them or not to tell them. If you tell them, maybe during the first time they will take a while to understand the whole situation. But after that, I’m sure they will be there to support you and to make you happy when you’re down. Otherwise, if you don’t tell them, you’re going to miss that.

December 3, 2012

Anonymous asked: I feel so guilty after eating 3 meals a day. Why is that I can't be a normal person. Why is that I'm still fat. Why must I keep going to the scale even though I know it's not gonna tell me what I like. Why do these thoughts absorb my every being and when will I finally be happy?

I remember when I had those thoughts when I was sick. During lunch at my school, I couldn’t stop thinking about calories and while I was starving, I was looking at other people like: “eww. Do you have any idea of how many calories it has?” Those thoughts started to fade and vanish as soon as I decided to recover. Those thoughts were part of my illness.

November 21, 2012

Anonymous asked: i think i have aneroxia nervosa, i talked about it with m,y dance teacher. but i want it to go away i have all the symptoms, and i weigh 100punds as 5'5. what should i do..

Anorexia Nervosa is a complex disease. You can have some symptoms, but not all of them and be anorexic, or have many symptons and be healthy. Anyhow, try to talk with a relative, maybe your mom or an aunt (I don’t know your genre nor your age). If you feel that you can’t trust them, try to talk with a counselor. I’m pretty sure they will help you to be a little bit more open about it so you can talk with a therapist soon. 

November 11, 2012

Anonymous asked: do you know any good blogs about depression?

I’m sorry. Right now I don’t visit any depression/ED related blogs. If you want to talk, you know where to find me :)

November 11, 2012

Anonymous asked: how can i talk to my boyfriend about my bulimia

Just tell him how is your relationship with food. If you really trust him, open your feelings with him, and tell him what’s going on. I’m sure he will support you and he will help you to get out of this mess <3

June 12, 2012

Anonymous asked: I struggled with bulimia and anorexia starting when I was 15, about 8 years ago. I went to see a dietitian, but my parents always said I was lying about it. During college I relapsed and recovered with the help of friends. I no longer have the support system of friends I used to have now that I have graduated college and have relapsed worse than before. I crave the control from restricting food. I have continuing problems with my parents who I am unable to turn to for help. How do I beat this?

I’m not an expert. I’m an 18 years old girl who has no knowledge about Eating Disorders but from the experience I had. 

I’ll suggest you to find a psychiatrist so you can talk to him/her. Try to find someone that makes you feel comfortable to talk with. It’s amazing the fact that you want to beat this. I always say it’s the best to have someone to support you in the outside: a relative, a friend, a teacher, etc. Try to keep in touch with your old friends. I’m sure they will be more than happy to be there helping you.